【2006】身體勞動 = 心靈大掃除

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今天星期天,是工作日。

雖然昨天過午夜才上床,但今早一覺醒來,聽見電視機裡傳出 Reba McEntire 的歌「He Gets That From Me」(註) ,加上昨夜紀伯侖《先知》中的一番憾人心弦的話,兩者互鳴共震、雙管齊下,餘音繞樑不絕。至此,今日,紛亂的心始往下沉澱。

對付心情煩雜的方式,一向是勞動。

把累積了一週的髒衣服丟進洗衣機,倒入洗滌劑,聽著洗衣機「轟隆轟隆」的聲音,彷彿丟入了煩惱,任它隨強勁水流大力的滾動、搓揉,然後一股腦地沖刷洗淨,大江東去。

撿起地上四處散亂的玩具、衣物,通通歸位放好。這本是兒子日常的工作,今日成了我心靈治療的一部份。全部丟入箱子,「匡鐺匡鐺」的互撞聲,之後是一陣歸類的萬籟俱寂。甩上箱蓋,雜亂瞬間隱沒、灰飛煙滅,觸目四望,滿處寬敞無痕的平坦。

抬出笨重但忠心的吸塵器,整間公寓一間一間房間、從頭到腳、沒天沒地的吸。地上結硬的米粒吸走,鬱結的頭髮掃光,掉落的皮屑清乾,難辨的渣碎吸無赦,日常生活中所有人類不潔的副產品,全部進了吸塵器的肚子大團圓。

將廚房剩餘的髒碗盤刷洗得乾淨發亮,香甜的蜜桃洗碗精氣味,撫平了全身各大小毛孔的不安,污垢自指間流洩,一轉眼沖入黑不見底的水管,兩不相干。

疊齊一家大小的棉被,若散攤久了的棉被不疊,照祖母的說法是:「會壞」,被身將不再鬆軟如新,保暖功能也會漸漸失弱。(人的腦子也是如此吧? 偶爾也要做做頭腦體操疊一疊它)。

丟掉案前積了一大撂的廢紙、廣告、折價卷。一個人的文明心靈已夠雜亂,尚有外界不斷湧來的物質誘惑,引誘我們去購買一堆其實並不實際的鏡花水月。

解衣步入淋浴室,扭開蓮蓬頭盡情地沖刷,自髮根至腳趾,任水流在耳邊嘶鳴。深深地嗅進滾熱的蒸氣,再狠狠地大口吐出;吸氣、吐納、吐納、吸氣,讓血液充滿著氧氣,熱氣氳氤中,在鏡中看見臉色紅潤的自己,彷如赤子般的雙眼晶晶發亮。舊時的我已回來了嗎??

埋頭寫下這一段文章,心靈上的塵埃也一定要勤快打掃,保持光可鑑人的狀態。

一陣勞動過後,鬱積已久的煩悶無聲遠去。

我想,舊時的我已回來了………………….

2/20/2006
寫於風城

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註: 歌詞如下:

His early morning’s attitude,
You have to drag him out of bed.
Only frosted flakes will do,
He gets that from me,
Yeah, he gets that from me.

His curly hair and his knobbly knees,
The way the sun brings those freckles out.
Talk and talk, never miss a beat,
Yeah, he gets that from me,
He gets that from me.

He looks at me with those big brown eyes,
He’s got me in the palm of his hands,
And I swear sometimes it’s just like you’re here again.
He smiles that little crooked smile,
There’s no denying he’s your child.
Without him I don’t know what I’d do,
He gets that from you,
Oh, he gets that from you.

How he loves your old guitar,
Yeah, he’s taught himself to play.
He melts my heart: tells me he love me every day.
And cracks jokes at the perfect time,
Makes me laugh when I want to cry.
That boy is everything to me,
He gets that from you,
He gets that from you.

Last night, I heard him pray,
Lord, help me and mama make it through.
And tell Daddy we’ll be okay,
He said he sure misses you,
He sure misses you.
He really misses you,
He gets that from me.

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